PokegGlitch: Nirvana

» Name: Nirvana
» Age: 19 (technically only a few months)
» Sex: Female
» Species: #477 Dusknoir
» Ability: Pressure - When a Pokémon with Pressure is targeted by a foe's move, one additional PP is deducted upon execution. Consequently, extra PP is deducted even if the foe's move misses, has multiple targets, or is rendered ineffective due to immunity. Pressure applies to allies targeting the Pokémon.If the move of a Pokémon targets several foes with Pressure, one additional PP will be deducted for each one.
» Level: 8
» D.O.B: Nov. 13, XXXX
» Height/ Weight: 5' 4''; 112.2 lbs
» District/ Alignment: Diavolo; Evil
» Job: Recruit
» Moveset:

Ice Punch
Fire Punch
Future Sight

» Personality:

| Sassy || Giggly || Insensitive || Energetic || Cocky || Sarcastic || Blunt |

She doesn't believe so, but her personality has changed a lot from when she was alive. It's true that she has given up on a lot that she had hoped for before, but she's also matured to a point where she can really be treated like an adult, and not some child influenced by bad decisions. She might not really seem like it all the time, with her bubbly yet slightly dark outward personality, but she doesn't take many things too personally. She's surprisingly  friendly, but  isn't the type to initiate the conversation; a challenge maybe, but definitely not conversation. She is very insensitive to others feelings, depending on who it is, because her mentality says to get what she needs first before trying to give to others. She figured out that those who put others needs before their own are the saddest people. There are few people that she would put before herself, in a heroic manner despite being Diavolan. [TBA]

» Bio:

"Things were rough, but I'm okay."

You know that theory about becoming a ghost when you have unfinished business or died in an unexpected way, right? What if you really didn’t have anything left to do in life? What if you had already accepted death before it came? If you really did wish to die, and not because of some depressing phase. When you hit rock bottom, and are sick of everything , even the fact that you are in love and would do anything for someone -- you would wait, you  would accept any decision they made whether it involved you or someone else, whether it was torture, whether it was death -- because nothing was worth more than them.
None of this is what I wanted, but what I received.
Arceus.. A cruel way to say you’ll never get what you need, no matter how hard you’ve worked for it, and not even in death will you find peace. With a world like the one I’ve been forced to live -- no -- survive in, happiness isn’t a word, let alone an option.
How I came to be is a funny story actually, heheh. I think about it a lot and laugh cause I was so dumb to think Arceus would be merciful enough to let me free. It all started after this err... Circus thing. I found myself feelin' real depressed. I ended up helping this other girl out and seeing a lot of myself in her before I left the tent, and I got to thinking and asking myself why I was still alive and so many other weren't. Why I allowed myself to be manipulated into killing so many others, and what was it for? Money? Nothing is worth another's life. I figured I should have been dead for all of the other lives I had taken, and not just dead, but even forced to survive with the guilt and the pain of having my loved ones taken. But it turns out that's what I got, everyone I had ever loved was gone, taken. All but one, but I felt like I was... Detrimental to his health, to his sanity. I ended up sitting alone in some alleyway, and falling asleep there. I woke up when an acquaintance of mine happened to find me -- and I shouldn't say acquaintance because she cared about me so much, and I was too dense to get it. She was seriously worried about me, saying things like "Why are you out here?" "You have a huge bounty on your head, Acidia, you could have been killed!" And "How would Cyrus feel!?"
I was sick of hearing shit like that. "How could you?" "Why would you do such a thing" "Don't kill me!" blah blah blah, it was like this fucking eternal ring in my ear. Don't tell me what and what not to do, I make my own choices!
Those are things I would think anyway. But I wasn't making my own choices because I was RAISED to be a fucking killing machine! What a great memory to unearth, right? To remember that your biological parents abused you and wanted you dead, while your little sister begged your fucking mother to put the knife down while your father cursed and yelled at her to shut up. I wonder why I wasn't killed, but rather thrown in a ditch to rot away. Lucky me -- I wast left to die like I've wanted my whole life, but instead of actually dying, I was saved by my own stupidity and a wish. I screamed and cried, but had no one to run to, so instead someone came to me -- "rescued" me and took my home. A worthless little Venipede. Yeah, not so fun to be a tiny bug in a family of wolves.
So you would think that after being thrown out of a hell house where children are instead made into weapons, life would get significantly better right? I can easily say it got better, but the training regimen was never easier. I'm happy to say I did make it through college, but after college was when I would find my purpose for being born.
Even in that "happy" house of wolves, I still grew up as a weapon, and I still wanted to know who my real parent were. I couldn't even remember the first few months I was with that family -- hah! The slight brain damage I had received, with the extreme amount of stress I was put through, my brain blocked out that part of my life, and I could never remember it, not even if I wanted to.  Now, that I just don't give a shit, it's replaced any good memories I made in that house, with that family! All I remember are the most recent ones I cared for. I can't remember where I grew up, but instead how I was brought into this world -- the first and second times. 
That, my friend, was the first. Now back onto the second. 
I was still half asleep when she was talking to me and shaking me, saying that she was glad she didn't find me dead. I can't remember exactly what, but I said something along the lines of "I wish you had" or something. That's when she punched me. Hard and in the cheek too. This is where things start to get a little fuzzy for me. I got pretty pissed and pushed her hard enough for her to fall on the ground, before I got up and stood over her. After I looked her in the eye again, I noticed a tear fall down her cheek and she started screaming at me, after she got back up. She was preaching. "Arceus won't accept you if you kill yourself." 
"He doesn't exist, Anouk." I replied. Things got really heated and she was convinced that if I was let out of her sight for even one moment, I would kill myself.  Which was probably true. instead of really truly fighting back, I just kept egging her on. She eventually unsheathed her sword and held it up to my face while wiping the tears from her eyes. "if you want to die so badly, let me do it for you. I want you to be accepted into that sacred place with Arceus. So we can meet again, and this time on better terms." 
She... If I remember correctly, continued to go on about Arceus and heaven and It made me furious. I'm guessing that I told her he doesn't exist again, but this time I screamed back. I screamed a lot and louder that she was. I was crying too. I felt bad that she wished so much happiness on me and none of it would happen, I couldn't accept it, I didn't deserve a friend like her. I didn't deserve a life like the one I had. Which is why I had accepted death before happiness.
All our screaming attracted... Something.  
We fought. Together and until we were nothing. Until we couldn't fight any longer.
Until we died.
The last thing I remember is her asking me not to reject her this time. I didn't understand what she meant, because by that time I was already fading. But I felt peaceful. Happy almost. Arceus, if he exists, didn't like that and forced me back. I've learned to laugh at those who say they've given up on life, because it just wasn't that easy for me. I've given up on peace.

To this day, I don't know if Anouk is alive or dead, and either way, I wish the best for her, as she did for me. She deserved much more than what I gave to her. I hope she knows the meaning of happiness and what it feels like, and I hope that feeling never goes away.

» Items: None
» Trivia: 

-  (hourglass/ pear body type) Nirvana is very curvy, yet muscular as well. Her petite bone structure makes her shoulders look slightly broad, though her hips and thighs tend to weigh that out, giving her the slightly pear-ish body type. She focuses mostly on upper body training, because she punches more often than she kicks, which leaves a some weight in her hips and thighs. Her hands are small, but always seem to be tense and home to many callouses and scabs.
- [ More to come ]

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» Key:

"lmao i want to destroy you"
"nope"
"Who are you again?"
"Oh, yeah you're okay."
"Fricken. Awesome."
"You're like my husband/wife only you're cool." [ BFF STATUS ]
"Hooootttttt"
"Oh, arceus, there's something wrong with me. This is not ok." [ ultra bff status /or/ i actually love you and want you to have our babies ]

» Relationships:

?? > Cyrus  // Paint Brush Senpai // Horny Bastard // Necrophiliac //
"He's a huge dickface that won't ever spar with me. Aw, what can I say, He made coming back to life really worth it -- not that I had a choice, but at least I had something to look forward to. Even if he's pretty difficult most of the time."
[NEW]" I just hope we haven't drifted too far apart..."
> Kai // Halloweenie //
"I've only spoken to her once, and she reminds me a lot of an old friend. Hope I don't creep her out too much~"
> Fae // Purple //
"She cute."
> Synch //Princess//
"I don't really know her, but so far she's a real sweetheart."
> Ira //Pink//
"He's weird. I don't even know his name."
> Kito
"She's pretty chill.  I hope  get to know her better, considering the fact that she lives with me now."
> Ryouichi
"Sure, he's cute but I can't promise I won't try anything. He's pretty easy to talk to though, we've got a lot in common."